Thursday, March 19, 2026

Epilogue: What Did it Cost You?

Chapter 1: Money Well Spent
Chapter 2: Close Enough
Chapter 4: A Way Out
Chapter 6: First Things First
Chapter 8: Persona Non Grata

The house was smaller than the one from his childhood—the one he had sold after his mother died—but it felt entirely his own in a way no place had before. It sat low and square on a quiet street where the lawns were clipped short and the mailboxes leaned in the same direction, nudged that way over time. Inside, the air held a faint, permanent scent of coffee and lemon cleaner.

In his sixties, John finally had a space that belonged wholly to him. Not inherited. Not shared. Just his.

From the kitschy Packers throw pillows arranged with surprising precision along the plaid couch, to the heavy oak side table he had refinished himself, to the mini-blinds he only opened on overcast days—when the light was soft enough not to hurt his eyes—every inch reflected how he lived: uncluttered, basic, functional, organized.

Walking across the cool white tile of the kitchen floor in his socks, he moved with the quiet confidence of someone who knew exactly where everything was. The mugs were stacked by size. The utensils were sorted not just by type, but by frequency of use. Even the dish soap sat centered behind the sink, label facing forward.

Each item had been chosen and used by him.
Nothing remained from before.

No remnants. sentimental clutter, artifacts abandoned by a dead mother or any other woman.

He paused at the counter, running a thumb along the smooth edge of the coffee maker, and allowed himself a small, private smile.

Well—maybe one or two things.

The doorbell rang.

He straightened instinctively, smoothing the front of his shirt as he crossed the living room. When he opened the door, Jasmine stood there as if she had always belonged in the frame—one hip cocked slightly, sunglasses perched on her head, her expression already half-amused.

“House is looking so good, John.”

There was a brightness in her voice that felt slightly performative, as if she were narrating her own entrance.

“Thanks, Jazz.” He stepped forward and pulled her into a hug.

She fit against him easily, familiarly. He noticed, as he always did, the warmth of her skin, the faint scent of something citrus and expensive, the freckle on her right shoulder.

“I made coffee,” he said, stepping back. “And I’ve got a cherry pie.”

“Of course you do,” she laughed, slipping past him into the house like she knew the way. Her eyes flicked around the room, taking inventory without appearing to. “You ready for this? You know, we don’t have to do this.”

“I want to watch it with you.”

She glanced at him briefly—searching, maybe—but whatever she was looking for, she didn’t comment on it.

They settled onto the couch. Jasmine tucked one leg under herself and stretched the other out, her bare foot resting on the coffee table. The polish on her toes was chipped at the edges, a detail that felt oddly intimate against the otherwise composed version of her.

She lifted the mug, inhaled.

“Fresh ground?”

“Always.”

She swayed towards him. 

"Do you say how much you hate me?"

"I've never hated you, Jazz."

He kissed the palm of her hand.

The television flickered to life.

The light from the screen washed over the room in shifting blues and whites, flattening the space, turning their reflections faintly visible in the dark edges of the glass.

It was a strange thing—to sit beside someone and watch a version of themselves that had already been edited, scored, shaped into something consumable.
A film about them. Their story, told by someone else.

The feature moved quickly through Jasmine’s early life: photographs of her as a girl, interviews with childhood friends who spoke in softened, nostalgic tones, a brother who seemed both proud and cautious, and a brief note that her father had declined to participate.

Jasmine watched without reacting, her face still, composed.

Then the tone shifted.

Music dropped lower. The pacing slowed. Their story began.

John felt it immediately—that tightening in his chest, that reflexive urge to lean forward and interrupt.

That’s not how it happened.
That’s not what she meant.
That’s not what I said.

The urge passed through him and settled somewhere deeper.

Strangely, beneath it, there was relief.

Accuracy didn’t seem to matter. Maybe it never had.

Of course, he remembered everything he had said in the interview. Every word had felt deliberate at the time. But now, seeing his own silhouette—reduced to a shadowed outline, his voice distorted just enough to anonymize—it felt like watching someone else perform a version of him.

Beside him, Jasmine reached over and squeezed his knee. Not comfortingly. Not quite. More like a small acknowledgment.

Then she drew inward, wrapping her arms around her legs, her attention sharpening.

He knew what he had said.
She didn’t.

So he watched her instead of the screen.

Her face didn’t move much, but something in her gaze shifted—sliding past the television, past the room, as if she were watching something beyond the film.

When she finally appeared on screen, the contrast was immediate.

That version of Jasmine was polished—hair set, posture perfect, her expressions calibrated for effect. Older, somehow, and yet more contained than the woman sitting barefoot beside him.

Offscreen, the filmmaker—Chloe—asked questions in a careful, neutral tone.

Now Jasmine turned her attention to John, studying him with the same intensity she had moments ago reserved for the screen.

He kept his face neutral.

He had no idea what she was going to say.

Only that it wouldn’t be the whole truth.

“Can we discuss the first John?”

“I’d rather not,” Jasmine said on screen, smiling easily. “Aren’t you a feminist? Haven’t you heard of the Bechdel test? We need to talk about something other than a man for your film to pass.”

There it was—deflection wrapped in charm.

“I’ll play along,” Chloe replied. “What’s something people might not know about you?”

Jasmine tilted her head slightly, as if considering.

“I love a good orange. Skin thick enough to peel off in one long piece. Insides juicy and soft.”

John exhaled softly through his nose.

That was her. Always something sensory. Something just off-center enough to redirect the conversation.

“Well,” Chloe said, “this story is about him—your books, your career. He made it happen. Don’t you owe him something?”

“He would say it’s been fair.”

“That is probably true. If you could say anything to him, what would it be?”

“I suppose if I wanted to talk to him, I’d call him.”

She winked.

On the couch, John felt Jasmine’s eyes flick toward him, quick and searching, then away again.

Chloe didn’t smile this time.

“He has something for you. An envelope. Do you want it?”

“Sure,” Jasmine said lightly. “Let’s see what the old boy has to say.”

The envelope appeared on screen—plain, white, unremarkable.

Jasmine opened it carefully.

And for the first time, something broke.

It was subtle. A tightening around the mouth. A flicker in her eyes.

But it was there—the slip.

“What is it, Jasmine? Can you show the camera?”

She held up the photograph.

The Aphrodite statue.

On the couch, Jasmine made a small sound—half laugh, half breath.

“Such a naughty boy,” she murmured, glancing at him.

John lifted his coffee, hiding his smile in the rim of the mug.

God, she was easy to read.

On screen, Chloe leaned forward.

“You seem emotional. What does it mean?”

Jasmine held the photo against her chest.

“You ever been in love?” she said softly. “Really in love? You get inside jokes. A language no one else understands.”

Her fingers tightened slightly around the edges of the photo.

“This is that.”

Then she looked directly into the camera.

“I do have a message for him. I still want to know what it cost you.”

John paused the TV.

The room fell quiet, the hum of the refrigerator suddenly loud in the absence of sound.

He didn’t look at her right away.

He didn’t need to.

He knew exactly what she meant.

Not metaphor. Not emotion. Not sacrifice. 

The number.
The one thing he had never given her.

And she hated not knowing.

He leaned back slightly, settling into the couch.

Waited.

Beside him, Jasmine shifted. Adjusted her shirt. Crossed and uncrossed her legs. Her fingers moved—picking at lint, tracing the edge of the blanket, tapping lightly against her knee.

Time stretched.

Finally:

“Well?”

He turned his head just enough.

“Well what?”

She stared at him.

“Are you going to tell me?”

He let a small smile form.

“Fine. But you have to listen. No interruptions.”

She mimed zipping her lips, exaggerated, theatrical.

He nodded, satisfied.

“My mom was a single mom,” he began. “I spent a lot of time in Boy Scouts. Learned knots, sewing, whittling—”

Her eyes narrowed.

He raised a finger.

“No interruptions.”

She leaned back, hands up in surrender.

“One of my leaders had a son—Kenny. We were best friends. Did everything together.” He paused. “He died when we were eight.”

Something in Jasmine’s posture softened, just slightly.

“After that, his dad—Marvin—he kind of took me in. Still around. My sponsor now. He gave me a job. Tile and stone work. Not just construction. Craft.”

John’s hands moved unconsciously as he spoke, as if measuring, aligning.

“He taught me how to build something that lasts. We renovated the courthouse floor.”

He looked at her.

“You still don’t see it, do you?”

She shook her head.

“You didn’t look at the courthouse floor when we went there?”

“Okay,” she said slowly. “So you installed tile in a courthouse.”

“Turquin blue marble,” he said. “That statue? One of fifteen I carved when I was fifteen. One for each year I’d been alive. Leftover stone. Just a kid with too much time and a thing for Greek mythology.”

“John…” she said, almost laughing. “We bought it at Hanerty’s. I was there.”

“I know.”

He leaned back.

“They were in my room for years. Then my mom told me to get rid of them. So I took them to a gallery. Put them on consignment.”

He could still feel the weight of them in his hands. The careful explanations. The waiting.

“One by one, they sold,” he said quietly. “And I used that money to build my life.”

He looked at her again.

“That day at the store? I didn’t pay for it. Just the restocking fee.”

She stared at him.

“Are you for real?”

He gave a small shrug.

“That always seems to be the question with us.”

He picked up the remote and pressed play.

The film resumed, but his focus drifted.

All those years, he had thought the voice inside him—the one that questioned everything—meant that he didn’t know right from wrong.

But maybe it meant the opposite.

Maybe the only way to be good was to keep asking.

He turned his head slightly.

Jasmine sat beside him, eyes fixed on the screen, jaw set, something restless moving just beneath the surface—a woman who never seemed to question herself.

And still—he loved her.

He knew that now the way he knew the layout of his kitchen, the weight of his tools, the feel of stone under his hands.

Some things could not be changed.

His love for her was one of them.

He closed his eyes and recited the Serenity Prayer silently to himself.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.

Chapter 10: The First John

Chapter 1: Money Well Spent
Chapter 2: Close Enough
Chapter 4: A Way Out
Chapter 6: First Things First
Chapter 8: Persona Non Grata
Chapter 10: The First John

Chloe Pressman sighed as the van lurched over a pothole and finally rolled into the cracked asphalt parking lot. The hotel squatted low and wide against a pale, overcast sky, its faded sign flickering even in daylight. A row of half-dead shrubs lined the entrance, their leaves dusted with road grit.

“Jesus, what took you so long?”

From the front seat, the driver didn’t even turn around. “Mikey had to piss in Illinois.”

A few tired chuckles from the crew. Chloe didn’t smile.

Typical. The film crew never seemed to understand the meticulous hours and weeks that went into the schedule—the pre-interviews, the legal clearances, the narrative arcs mapped out like a thesis. To them, it was just another shoot.

She pushed the van door open before it had fully stopped.

“This is block filming,” she said, already moving. “We’ve got two days here, that’s it, and this is our primary subject. So be ready and make it count. I already checked in with the manager—papers are signed.”

The crew spilled out behind her in a loose, uneven wave. Cases thudded onto pavement. A boom operator—thin, hollow-eyed, perpetually chewing gum—slung his rig over his shoulder. A production assistant with a clipboard jogged to keep up, already flipping through call sheets.

Inside, the lobby smelled faintly of cheap air freshener and something older—stale carpet, maybe, or trapped humidity. The lighting was dim, yellowed, as if the bulbs had been replaced one at a time over decades.

As she led them down the hallway to the room, Chloe’s voice sharpened into command.

“I want B-roll of that,” she said, pointing to the carpet—blue and orange waves faded into a kind of sickly gray. “Get low angles. Make it feel… tired.”

The cameraman she’d grabbed—a broad-shouldered guy with a permanent squint named Luis—nodded, already adjusting his lens.

“Shots of the bed and couch too. Imperfect. Don’t clean anything up.”

A younger assistant hovered near the doorframe, unsure where to stand. Chloe barely looked at him.

“You’re with me,” she said, catching Luis’s sleeve and pulling him back. “We’re doing the intro outside. I want to make sure it fits with the narrative we’ve built.”

Behind them, the room filled with movement. Tripods snapping open. Cases unlatched. Someone testing audio—“check, check, one-two”—into a microphone that hummed.

From dropout to New York Times bestselling author in only a few years, Jasmine Kopernick became a fixation of American culture after a prominent actor and comedian named her in his suicide letter. The court case had consumed the media cycle for months—every network, every panel, every headline.

And then—nothing.

Not guilty of criminal negligence. Cleared of fraud. Released back into the world with no charges and no real answers. Evidence suggested she had never even slept with the dead man, despite numerous public appearances together.

Debate still lingered in the cultural air like smoke. Some called her a visionary. Others, a predator. Others still—something more complicated, harder to define.

Out front, the cold air carried the distant hum of traffic. Chloe positioned herself just off-center, the hotel rising behind her like a quiet witness.

“Rolling,” someone called.

She stepped forward as the camera tracked her.

“Within just a few years, Jasmine Kopernick went from a complete unknown dropout to a bestselling author. Better known as ‘DommyMommy,’ she is a polarizing figure in American culture.”

Her voice was steady, practiced—warm but edged with authority.

“It is here, at this hotel—” she gestured upward, fingers precise “—that the seed of her career was planted, when she met a man referred to only as ‘the First John.’”

She paused, staring gravely into the camera lens, then continued.

“Widely viewed as the cofounder of the DommyMommy movement, he has remained a figure shrouded in secrecy. Today, for the first time ever, he will speak on the record about his experience.”

She let the pause hang just long enough.

“Whether you believe in DommyMommy or hate her… you’ll want to hear what he has to say.”

“Cut.”

Chloe checked her watch immediately. “Reset. I think I need to speed up the intro.”

They ran it again. And again. Each time, she shaved seconds off, sharpened a phrase, adjusted her pacing. By the fifth take, her voice hit the exact rhythm she wanted—controlled, inevitable.

“Good,” she said finally, already turning back inside.

The hotel room had transformed.

Lights flooded the space, washing out the dingy walls into something almost neutral. The bedspread had been smoothed but not replaced. The couch angled slightly toward camera. Cables snaked across the floor in meticulous loops.

“Okay, listen up—eyes on me.”

The room quieted, one by one. Even the gum-chewing boom operator stopped.

“I know we went over this before we left the studio, but I want to emphasize: utmost confidentiality. Complete anonymity. This man has never spoken to the press directly.”

She let that settle.

“This is it, people.”

A few nods. Someone shifted their weight.

Chloe felt it then—that electricity in her chest.

This was it.

The year she would win an Emmy.

Not just a nominee.

A winner.

As the assistants pinned a microphone to the man’s shirt, Chloe watched him carefully.

She had expected… something else.

Instead, he looked painfully ordinary.

Gray hair, thinning at the crown. A face lined more by time than by drama. T-shirt, jeans, slip-on sneakers. The kind of man you’d pass in a grocery store without a second glance.

He could have been her father.

She stepped forward, softening her tone.

“We can take a break at any time. Just ask. We have drinks, snacks, a restroom—anything you need.”

She gestured lightly toward the crew.

“And it’s just us. Ignore the cameras. Think of it like hanging out with a friend.”

He shifted, accommodating the assistant adjusting his mic. No visible nerves. No trembling hands. No darting eyes.

“Now, the lighting casts a shadow over your face,” she continued, “but in editing we’ll darken it further and alter your voice. Totally anonymous. No names.”

“Good.” His voice was calm. “I don’t want this to… affect my real life.”

Something in that phrasing caught her, but she moved past it.

“Finally, we’ll start with some easy questions. Just to get you comfortable. These usually won’t make the final cut. We’ll build up from there. Sound good?”

“Yes.”

The clapboard snapped.

“Action.”

“Start easy for me. Tell me a little about yourself. What do you do with your time?”

“Oh, probably too much,” he chuckled, rubbing his knee. “I’m basically retired. Woodworking, art, sculptures. Lots of reading. Basic stuff.”

The boom operator leaned slightly closer. The camera tightened its frame.

“And you were a Boy Scout?”

“Yes. A long time ago.”

“Where did you last go on vacation?”

He paused longer this time.

“I don’t know if I really vacation. I’ve seen things. Done things. But vacation? Like a cruise or a beach? Not me.”

Chloe nodded, already transitioning.

“Okay, we’re going to ramp up now.”

She glanced at her notes.

“We’re here, in the place you first met Jasmine. What was your first impression of her?”

“She seemed sweet. Nice.” A faint smile. “I liked her. I liked her a lot.”

His eyes drifted—not evasive, but inward.

“According to her account, for two years you only met to talk, cuddle, and similar activities. Is that accurate?”

“Everything she’s said… is accurate. We can focus on other stuff.”

That landed heavier than expected.

Chloe’s eyebrow lifted slightly.

“Everything? Everything about you?”

“Yes.” No hesitation. “It’s all true.”

Behind the camera, someone shifted.

This was not resistance.
It was worse.
Just… agreement.

Yes, he had been humiliated. Yes, controlled. Yes, reshaped.

And yes—he believed it had helped him.

The shape of the story refused to bend.

“One moment, please.” She shuffled through her notes, searching for a particular section.

“She describes you, early on, as weak. Low self-esteem.”  she paused, glanced at his face, then continued, “The kind of man who put women on a pedestal. Overly reliant on authority. Drawn to punishment, pain, servitude. Is that fair?”

“Hm.” He considered it. “The weak part, sure. Early on. But later? No. Once things changed between us, I wasn’t like that anymore. Her book talks about the shift in me. The rest of that… yeah. That’s accurate.”

Chloe glanced back to her notes.

“In her book, she says she bound you. Spanked you. Used you as furniture. Made you crawl. That accurate?”

John rocked his head slightly back and forth, as if taking inventory.

“There was a lot more than that. But everything you said was accurate.”

“And she calls it therapeutic. Are you agreeing with that as well?”

“Yeah. I’m a better man for everything she did.” His hand brushed his shirt as he gestured to himself.
“Better how?”
“Before her, I could barely get through a sentence. Always second-guessing. Might be hard to see now.”

“When Jasmine announced the breakup, a lot of rumors followed. Your relapse. Her hurting you. Your doubts about the movement. What actually happened?”

His brow furrowed into deep lines as he looked down at the floor. After a sharp inhale, he answered:

“I’m an alcoholic. Relapsing is something we sometimes do. I drank before I met Jasmine. I was sober when we met. I’m sober now. She really isn’t part of my sobriety.”

“What was it, then? Her statement said it was amicable and mutual. Was it? Why did it end?”

“It was. Not that I loved all of it. I was concerned about how public her work was—her face and name tied to it. The fame… it made it hard to just live and be together. If it were up to me, it would have been completely anonymous. No names or faces in the media.”

“Did she choose fame over you?”

“No. No, I let her pursue her calling.”

“But the publicity bothered you,” Chloe said, lowering her voice slightly.

“Yes.”

“Then what was it like watching her move on with Chance Darrick?”

“An opportunity with Jasmine is a dream. For a certain kind of man, anyway. I was proud of her.”
“And about the suicide letter?”
““I was sorry about how he died. But that wasn’t her. The letter’s public. He said what he was angry about. He couldn’t have all of her. That’ll drive a man mad.”

“You really believe that?”

“Yes.”

“No doubt at all?”

He didn’t hesitate. “No doubt.”

“Interesting. You are considered the cofounder of the DommyMommy theory and lifestyle. How does that make you feel?”

“I’m not really a cofounder. I just happened to be there when it was founded. I’m a witness. A participant. I can’t claim ownership.”

“You defend it. You helped shape it. Why not own that?”

He shook his head. “Jasmine wouldn’t like me saying this… but I don’t know about cofounder. She came up with it. But the people who actually live that way, day to day... that’s what turned it into something real. “

“What about the court cases? Charges of fraud? Criminal negligence?”

He waved a hand dismissively. “She was found innocent in all of those instances.”

“But her own accounts with you were used as evidence for the prosecution. At any point did you feel the need to become involved?”

“Her lawyers didn’t seem to need me.”

“And the prosecution?”

“They were misguided. That’s why they couldn’t prove it.”

Chloe made a small circling motion with her finger toward production. “One moment. Let’s take a fifteen-minute break. Restroom, water, stretch your legs.”

Boom mics lowered. Cameramen immediately reached for their phones, posture collapsing out of performance. John took a sip of water.

Chloe flipped through her notes, quickly eliminating questions that no longer seemed relevant. She had anticipated that Jasmine had embellished—or outright lied. Now it seemed as though John was corroborating everything. Even the efficacy.

As everyone settled back into place, she leaned toward him.

“This is your chance, John. People already think they know this story. You can correct the record now.”

She placed an encouraging hand on his shoulder. She had already begun editing this in her head. And it wasn’t cutting the way she needed.

“Yeah. My story. Okay.”

The clapboard snapped again. They were rolling.

“Did Jasmine ever hurt you?”

“Of course she did. You read the book, yes?”

“Is there anything she did that hurt you that wasn’t in the book?”

He traced a finger around his knee, thoughtful. “She got to know me really well. Better than anyone else in my life. Saw me. Really saw me. But she still underestimated me. I don’t think she ever got to the bottom of my soul like she thought she did.”

“Why do you think that was?”

“Hm… we’re two sides of the same coin. She didn’t really look at herself that way. Not close. So I don’t think she knew how to look at that in me either.”

“I’ve interviewed Dr. Timothy Morrison many times. He’s expressed great concern for your psychological well-being after Jasmine. Have you seen the psychological profile he wrote about you?”

“I’ve read it. Who wouldn’t?”

“What are your thoughts?”

“Well, I didn’t fall apart, return to prison, go on back-to-back benders, or go back to my sexual relationship with Jasmine.”

“After the separation, did you seek out other women to dominate you?”

His head snapped, shaking violently. “No. No. No one is like her.”

“If you don’t mind me saying, you sound like a man still in love.” Chloe touched a finger lightly to her lips, offering an empathetic smile.

“I am. I miss her. The taste of her spit. The arches of her feet. The smell of her armpits at the end of the day. The little sounds she made when she slept. The… evil little things she would think up.”

His voice wandered, dreamy, almost reverent.

Chloe narrowed her eyes.

“So nothing about it was damaging? Not once?”

“No.”

Silence settled over the room, heavy and wrong.

Chloe nodded slowly.
“Okay.”

She could feel the Emmy slipping away.

She had made pop stars cry, pastors confess affairs, actors unravel on camera—yet here she was, being stonewalled by a man who refused to break in the expected way. The interview felt eerily familiar, like the many times she had sat across from Jasmine.

It was time to pivot.

If she couldn’t expose contradiction, maybe she could reframe the narrative—focus on influence, dependency, the possibility of manipulation. Let the audience draw its own conclusions.

“Have you seen Jasmine since the separation?”

“Of course. She’s everywhere now—on TV, in magazines, online. Everywhere.”

“Have you gotten over her?”

“Hm…” He closed his eyes briefly. “I don’t know if anyone ever gets over someone like that. Not when they become a part of you. It’s like losing an arm. You accept it. You acclimate. But you’re not… just over it.”

“One more question, and then we’ll take a break.”

John nodded.

“I’m interviewing Jasmine next week. Do you have a message for her?”

“I do.”

He stood, reaching into his pocket, and pulled out what appeared to be a photograph. He placed it into her outstretched hand.

Chloe examined it. A nude female figure—something like an old sculpture, classical in style.

“Can this”—she held up the glossy paper—“be shown on camera? On the record?”

“Yeah. But I think only she would understand it.”

Chloe held the image a moment longer than necessary.

Not because she understood it, but because she couldn’t.

Maybe this still could be the year. The Emmy was still within reach.

And yet, beneath that thought, small and almost imperceptible, was the feeling that something had slipped past her unnoticed.

The story he told wasn’t the one she wanted.

And worse—
it didn’t feel like the whole truth.


Chapter 9: Terms and Conditions

Chapter 1: Money Well Spent
Chapter 2: Close Enough
Chapter 4: A Way Out
Chapter 6: First Things First
Chapter 8: Persona Non Grata
Chapter 10: The First John


As she glided across the white marble floor of the courthouse lobby, Jasmine couldn’t help but wonder how it had come to this moment.

Marble pillars lined the room like a courthouse pretending to be a temple. The floor gleamed under fluorescent lights, polished to a slick, unnatural shine. It caught the movement of strangers in fragments—heels, briefcases, shadows sliding past one another without ever touching.

Everything felt too official. Too permanent. Like a place designed to take something living and press it flat into record.

It still didn’t seem real. When she had called her business manager, Kenneth Swipes, she thought she was just venting to a friend—pacing barefoot in the kitchen, staring at the ring John’s coffee mug had left in the wood.

“John and I are breaking up.”

But he didn’t give the sympathetic, sassy response she expected. Instead, there had been a pause—sharp, calculating.

“This is the worst thing you could have said. Call your lawyer immediately.”

“We aren’t married, Ken. I can just move out.”

“Jesus, Jasmine. You can’t move out. You’ve lived there for years. You have tenant rights. That might be your only leverage.”

“No, no, no. Ken, it’s not like that. I want him to move on, be happy. Just end it peacefully.”

“Jasmine, use your head. There’s a bestseller sitting in a lot of American homes with evidence that he could have a claim to your intellectual property. He could end your career. But maybe…” A sigh. “I’m not a lawyer—call your lawyer. You can set up camp in the house and use that leverage to get him to sign a contract.”

“He isn’t even named in the book. He doesn’t want that.”

“Girl, in a breakup, you don’t know what anyone wants.”

The conversation had woven a quiet, persistent fear into her—something that set up camp inside her and stayed there. It made her replay every conversation with John, examine every gift for hidden meaning, question what love even meant—and whether this was the real ending. Not the controversy. Not the audience.

A man.

A man she loved.

That was the start. Or maybe it had begun long before that—some small fracture she hadn’t noticed at the time.

Regardless, it had led to this: mediation. More amicable, more private, more flexible than court. That was how it had been sold to her. By a business manager, a lawyer, and eventually John.

For weeks, she sat in the same beige room—walls the color of parchment, a faint hum from the air vent overhead—with her lawyer, Karen Dent, a shrewd woman who spoke in clean, decisive sentences, and Kenneth, whose flamboyant suits seemed to grow louder with each session—emerald one week, electric blue the next, patterns that demanded attention in a place that drained it.

John sat somewhere else. Another room. Another version of this conversation.

Perhaps with Marvin. Perhaps with a lawyer.

Jasmine hoped he wasn’t alone.

No phones. No communication. No glances, no accidental touches, no shared looks across a table. 

No manipulation.

Just the mediator—a stout, perpetually winded woman who carried the weight of both rooms with her, breathing too heavily, speaking in careful, neutral phrases.

“The other party concedes point number eight.”

Not: John agrees.

Never John.

Back and forth, door to door, statement to statement. Jasmine began to measure time not in minutes, but in the mediator’s footsteps—each entrance a shift, each exit a pause.

She watched, with a strange, detached clarity, as the life they had built together—face to face, hand in hand—was dismantled separately, impartially, institutionally.

This was their third mediation session. How many more of these orchestrated dances Jasmine would have to endure, she didn’t know. It felt rehearsed now—like both she and John had entered asking for more than they wanted, only to slowly whittle things down to what they had wanted all along.

A clean break.

The mediator burst through the door, already slightly out of breath.

“Quick review of the current terms and conditions before we proceed.”

She placed a warm stack of freshly stapled papers on the table—the metal of the staple gleaming—and disappeared again before anyone could respond.

Karen flipped through the pages with practiced efficiency.

“This is good,” she said. “It has the house being sold, contents included, with the proceeds split fifty-fifty. That’s more than you could get in court.” She tapped the paper lightly. “He’s giving you full intellectual property rights to DommyMommy. He’s asking for a public statement announcing the breakup, plus a nondisclosure clause about his identity—which we expected. All the gifts are yours.”

She silently continued through the agreement.

“This is too good a deal. He’s going to come back with something.”

Kenneth leaned forward, rings overpowering his steepled fingers. “We can’t lose the IP.”

Jasmine held her copy, the paper slightly thicker than standard—legal weight. Important and permanent. She read the same sentence over and over, the words flattening more each time.

“Karen.” She tapped her shoulder gently. “What does this mean?” Her finger hovered over a paragraph.

Karen glanced down. “Oh. He just added that you return a statue. Marble—Aphrodite. Gifted to the petitioning party.” A shrug. “You can give him that.”

“But—”

The door swung open again.

“The other party is agreeable to these terms. Do you have any questions or concerns?”

The mediator stood there, chest rising and falling, a sheen of perspiration already forming at her collar.

“Jasmine,” Karen said, turning fully toward her, voice low and firm, “this is a good deal. I encourage you to take it. It’s more than you could get in court.”

“But it’s too much.” Jasmine’s voice came out softer than she intended. “It’s much more than you said he’d agree to.”

“Who cares? It’s legally binding. He agrees to it.”

“I…” She swallowed. “I need more information about the statue. Why does he want it?”

The mediator blinked, thrown off by the request. “I don’t know, ma’am. I can go ask.”

“Please do.”

The words came out weak and brittle.

When the door closed again, the room seemed smaller.

Kenneth exhaled sharply. “Sweetie, it’s one statue. You’ve got celebrities in your DommyMommy DMs who could buy you Michelangelo. Let it go.” He tilted his head, lips pursed in campy sympathy.

Karen nodded. “It’s an exceptionally good deal. I wouldn’t look a gift horse in the mouth.”

“But it was a gift,” Jasmine said, more to herself than to them.

Kenneth waved the papers lightly. “You’ve got lots of gifts here—and more to come. This is just one.”

“Okay. Okay. You’re right.” Jasmine smoothed a barely-there crease in her skirt, grounding herself in the small motion. “Can the mediator ask questions about anything?”

“Yes.”

They waited.

The silence stretched, filled only by the faint hum of the vent and the distant murmur of voices bleeding through the walls.

Then—air displaced, door opening—

The mediator returned, visibly frayed, her composure slipping.

“All he will say is that he wants it. It should be—” she checked her notes, squinting—“and I quote—‘at home with him.’”

Something in Jasmine’s chest tightened.

“Tell him he can have it,” she said slowly, “and we agree—but only if he tells me how much it cost. I want the price.”

The room stilled.

Karen frowned. Kenneth’s brows lifted.

Jasmine felt it immediately—that shift. As if she had stepped out of line, broken the rhythm they had all been following.

The mediator hesitated, then nodded. “Okay. I will tell him.”

Again, the door. Again, absence.

Kenneth leaned forward. “Girl, what is wrong with you? What are you doing?”

“This is not the hill you want to die on,” Karen said, sharper now.

Jasmine tuned them out.

She didn’t care.

Men played games—she knew that. She had built an entire philosophy around it.

But not John.

Not him.

The mediator returned, more quickly this time, irritation plain on her face.

“The other party cannot disclose the price,” she said. “I can’t explain further. He shared information that prevents him from giving you a number.”

Jasmine stared at the table, at the black type, at the clean, final lines.

Something inside her gave way—not loudly, not dramatically, just a quiet internal release, taking off a bra at the end of the day.

Even though she would walk out of this room with more than she had expected—more than Karen had predicted—it didn’t feel like winning.

It felt like losing something she couldn’t name.

“Fine,” she said. “We agree.”

Kenneth broke into a wide grin, relief flooding his face as he pulled her into a quick, celebratory hug.

“Girls’ night tonight! Then I’m drafting a statement on the breakup for John to review.”
Jasmine let herself be held for a moment, her hands resting lightly at her sides.

By the time she got home, the deal that had looked so clean on paper already felt dirtier inside her. She had won. She knew that.

But she did not feel like celebrating.

She wanted to call John.

But couldn’t.

The one thing she wanted most—cut off completely.

All part of the process. All direct communication between the parties had to go through the mediator until the agreement was fully executed and both sides had upheld the terms and conditions.

The end was too clean, measured, legal. Everything the start of their relationship wasn’t.

She dialed her father’s number. A man she could call now—and who would answer.

“Hey, kiddo! Finally found time for your old man, huh?”

“Hi, Dad. It’s been crazy.”

“Well, I try to keep up with the news. You know I don’t get it, but I’m so proud of you. Always been the smartest and most driven. I knew you’d be successful.”

The compliments came fast and familiar—and landed hollow.

She traced the edge of a framed photo of her and John.

“It’s not all success.”

“Well, of course the old guard complains. Hypnosis… that rapid-eye thing… it all sounds weird and new—till it works. They shut up.”

He chuckled, pleased with her. With himself.

Jasmine slid the photo from its frame. The paper stuck slightly before releasing. She placed it carefully into a moving box already half-filled with books pulled from the shelves. One by one, she emptied the frames and returned them to their places—silver rectangles, blank and reflective.

They would be sold for a few dollars. The money split evenly, like a judgment from King Solomon.

As if that were the fair division of a life together.

“It’s not the business part,” she said. “That’s easy. It’s…” She hesitated. “The mediation is over. Papers are signed. I have to move out. I can’t even talk to him until it’s all done. Until the house is sold. Until everything on that paper is done. Until we both complete our side of the deal.”

There was a pause on the line—not for her, but for him to decide how to respond.

Her hand drifted to the Aphrodite statue. The white, smooth face seemed almost lifelike as Jasmine frowned at the statue. Like any minute, the goddess’s plump lips would begin to speak, her arms wrapping around Jasmine.

“Jazz,” he said finally, “you are beautiful, rich, famous. I don’t think you need to worry about finding another man. You know, kiddo—one more your equal.”

He let it sit.

“You know.”

She did know.

Even though the breakup wasn’t public yet, the verdict had already been delivered. In comments. In message boards. Across social media. Anonymous usernames, verified pundits, her business manager Kenneth—everyone had an opinion about her relationship—many without knowing his name, how he took his coffee, his favorite kind of pie, or the shape of his heart.

The consensus—unsolicited and absolute—was that Jasmine was too good for John.

That she needed to move on.

“Yeah,” she said. “You’re right. I’ve gotta get back to work.”

“Jeez, kiddo. You’re always working. Surely now you can slow down a little. Rest?”

Jasmine looked around the library—John’s library, though the idea for it had been hers. Half-filled boxes. Gifts. Clothes. Books. The curated remnants of a shared life, reduced now to whatever she was allowed to keep. Her hand drifted to the cool marble face she couldn’t.

“I will,” she said. “But right now, it’s more important than ever. I’ve got a lot to do.”

“I love you. You know, I always wanted a daughter, and your mom—she was ready to give up. Five boys. Five! But I’m so glad we didn’t. I’m so proud of you. I’m always bragging about my smart, rich, famous daughter. The guys, everyone I talk to—they can’t believe I’m the father of the DommyMommy.”

He emphasized the the, because there was only one. 

Her. His daughter.

“I love you too, Dad. Bye.”

She hung up.

For a moment, she stood still, her hand resting on Aphrodite’s face. The goddess stared past her—serene, perfect, unknowable.

Jasmine lifted the statue and carried it to the kitchen table, placing it with the growing pile labeled, in her mind, return to John.

Maybe, after all these years, she had finally become exactly what her father had always said she would be.

Smart. Rich. Famous.

Perfect.

And like this fucking statue, she would never know what it had cost her to get there.

“Hey, beautiful,” she said to the statue. “Guess it’s time for you to go live with John.”

By the next day, Kenneth had moved on to what came after loss: narrative.

As expected, Kenneth was overdressed in tailored metallic trousers and a white, billowy silk blouse. Multiple pearl necklaces peeked out from the deep V-collar.

“So, I have a drafted statement ready for release. John has seen it and approved.”

Jasmine read through the brief paragraph. It felt overly curated and deliberately vague. The relationship was over. It was mutual, amicable, and clean.

“Ken, I don’t want to say the wrong thing.”

“In this world, there is no saying the wrong thing. You just say exactly what the public wants. They want it done, packaged up, and for you to move on. Honey, this is practically the same statement every famous couple uses when it’s over. It’s just the way it’s done.”

“Did he seem okay? When you spoke to him? About the statement?”

“It was email, sweetie. He responded quickly. I didn’t chitchat, darling.”

He reached into a leather folder.

“Girl, let’s quit talking about John and get to all these strapping young lads.” Kenneth giddily waved a stack of press photos covered in notes. “Each man has been in your DMs—look at the photos. I’ve got their names, brief bios, net worths. I already know which one is my favorite, but I’m dying to hear your thoughts.”

Jasmine didn’t even know where John was living. Probably somewhere smaller. Quiet. Dark. The way he liked it—lights off, blinds half-closed, coffee going cold beside him. He had never wanted all this attention. Maybe the only thing she could do to make it right was shine the spotlight on someone else.

She looked over the faces—smiling, touched up, meticulously groomed. Hair perfectly tousled, just messy enough to suggest effortlessness, but clearly engineered that way. Every jawline sharpened, every flaw softened, every man curated into something sellable.

She didn’t really want any of them, but she felt obligated to choose, so she began pulling out the ones she recognized.

An older actor whose sitcom had been popular when she was in high school—the kind of show her mother watched reruns of in the afternoons. He had played a lovable, slightly incompetent nerd. In the headshot, he was trying for serious now. 

A celebrity chef known for his fusion cuisine—Korean-Italian, Peruvian-Japanese, and photographed well under warm lighting and expensive plating. She had seen clips of him shouting in kitchens, then crying in interviews about his childhood.

A boy band singer turned solo indie artist—leaner now, sadder, tattoos creeping up his neck like ivy. His eyes carried that practiced vulnerability that translated well to album covers and late-night interviews.

“Ken?” she said, unsure.

Kenneth didn’t look up right away. He was leaning back in his chair like a man at a fitting, one ankle resting on the opposite knee, the silk of his blouse whispering as he moved. He flipped a photo with a manicured finger, a gemstone on the nail, probably real.

“Yeah, baby. I like these too. Famous enough to strengthen the brand, but not enough to diminish you.”

His voice had that warmth he used for clients.

“No, not that. Um…” She paused, trying to find the right entry point, the right framing. There should have been language for this—there was always language—but this felt harder. “It won’t be like in my book. They need to know. No sex, none of that. Just for… appearances.”

The word hung there, weaker than she intended.

"Hmm...makes my job harder."

Kenneth’s eyes flicked up, sharp for a moment, assessing—not her, but the implication. Then he relaxed again, twisting one of the longer pearl necklaces between his fingers, the beads clicking softly.

“Rumor is this one’s gay,” he said, tapping the corner of a photo without fully lifting it. “Closeted. Maybe that’s an angle. Discreet arrangement, mutual benefit, very modern.”

He slid that one aside, already losing interest.

“But I think maybe this one—” he lifted a black-and-white headshot between two fingers—“this is more our speed.”

The man in the photo wasn’t smiling. Late thirties, maybe early forties. Handsome in a way that had once been undeniable, now just slightly worn at the edges. The kind of face people recognized but couldn’t quite place without help.

“Desperate to be relevant again,” Kenneth continued. “Not my first choice, but definitely willing to play ball. Lots of stints in facilities for exhaustion—” he made a small air-quote motion with his free hand—“very public about his depression. We can work that in easily. Redemption arc. Reinvention. Healing through you.”

Through you.

Jasmine felt that land.

She took the photo from him.

The man’s eyes looked past the camera, like he had been instructed not to try too hard.

Jasmine held the glossy paper and looked at the face of her future. A comedian she had never heard of—with the lowest net worth of the bunch. Chance Darrick.

“I’ll reach out to him,” Kenneth said, already shifting into execution. “Make sure he understands this is PR only. Clean boundaries. Clear expectations.”

He leaned forward now, energy sharpening.

“But his career’s been in the tank. Last I heard, he’s mostly doing twenty-dollar autographs at conventions. Signing old headshots for women who used to have crushes on him in 2007.” A small, dismissive smile. “So even if he doesn’t want it to be just PR, he’ll take it.”

He placed a reassuring hand on her knee and winked.

“He’d be stupid not to.”

Jasmine didn’t respond.

Her thumb traced the edge of the photo, just slightly bending it before she caught herself and flattened it again.

A man she didn’t want, but a story she could sell.

And somewhere, out of reach, a man she couldn’t even speak to. Not yet.

Two weeks later, Kenneth’s choice had become her date. In a hotel suite stripped and restaged for glamour, Jasmine stood beside Chance Darrick while a styling team prepared them to be seen.

Jasmine felt uncomfortable as the stylist and crew dressed and undressed her, then dressed her again, working to get the right look for the premiere. Chance Darrick had a small role in a limited series released on a popular streaming service. It wasn’t expected to be a hit, but it was the biggest break he’d had in years.

Jasmine stood next to Chance, then stepped away, then back to his side as the team reviewed them separately and together.

“It’s important to make sure the looks are cohesive for the photos. Solo shots included,” a small woman with a pen in her mouth explained.

“It’s her necklace,” a man sitting on the floor stated matter-of-factly. “Too small.”

The team began going through velvet boxes of necklaces—sapphires, jade, diamonds, platinum—all on loan from the small Italian jewelry company Jasmine was a brand ambassador for.

“Maybe the tiara?”

“God, Whitney, no. Stop. That’s fucking awful.”

As the team squabbled over final touches and pulled out lookbooks and notes from the styling meeting, Chance rolled his eyes and looked at Jasmine.

“I’ve done book signings and events, but nothing like this. Not…” she trailed off.

“Red carpets are easy. Someone tells you what to do the whole time. Stand here. Walk to the next person. Stand here. Photographers yell—‘to your left,’ ‘to your right.’” He sighed and pulled out his phone. “You’ll be fine. Done this too many times.”

Jasmine picked up her own phone—not because she expected anything worth seeing, but just to have something to do as she stood there.

Her hands shook with disbelief as she read the email multiple times, making sure she understood it.

The mediator confirmed that the agreement was fully executed and her role was complete.

Jasmine’s mind began racing through possible next steps, but it wasn’t about the deposit into her bank account—not about the intellectual property, or even the marble statue.

It was about the man.

She took a deep breath in and let it out slowly, deciding she would text him—but not yet.

“Okay, Jasmine, Ms. DommyMommy, come here so I can put this on you,” a young, gazelle-like woman said, holding a loose, woven diamond necklace.

As she felt the clasp close and the base of her neck, the phone in her hand vibrated softly. She had just decided to wait when the phone made the decision impossible.

Just a quick glance at the text. Unbelievable. John.
Now that it’s all over, maybe we can be friends.

Friends. Jasmine almost laughed.

As if there were a word for what they had been.

As if there were a smaller version of it they could safely return to.

She read it again.

Maybe.

That was the part that stayed with her.

Not an ending.

No regret.

An opening.

Her thumb hovered over the screen.

For the first time in weeks—

there was something she was allowed to choose.