faded memories lost

college boy

dirty sheets

cigarette burn

at my feet

taste the air

choke hair

no sleep tonight

only pass out 

oil paint and water colors

Grasping last night's dream

like grasping straws, trapping

curling smoke in air with a net,

I get only flashes. There was you 

and me. Now, though we didn't 

speak for a decade. The silence 

was like us. Me, oil paint, thick

and heavy-handed. You, water paints,

delicate and difficult. The same, we.

How does one explain a decade

in a dream, describe a lifetime 

of choices that sum up to - 

I was wrong. I was confused.

I still am. In one toss, one turn,

one fleeting dark night?

We are just oil and water,

and I am a restless sleeper.

jewels in the sky

Precious lover,

sweet honey,

I'm so sorry.

I get lost,

distracted,

following crumbs

of other lives,

pages of women,

fallen leaves,

colorful, tempting,

when each step

further from home

I weaken.

A waste when

all that is me

is here

with you.

prospective patriarchy

Dip the fembot 

into a digital bath

hold by the heel

wash away her dreams

of electric sheep

a binary baptism

then set her on her knees

where she will stay as you

program her to worship

all of man's disease.

showers at the ymca

Chamomile drops splatter

round the drain with foam

betwixt us, stall-to-stall,

edging towards the tip 

of tomorrow, it's another

time. Shake the soap 

from your eyes, child,

And smell the petals

floating freely in the air.

dirty habits

Smoke it up in the shower

like a bad girl, like you didn't

tattletale earlier, colleague,

like a good girl, like you never

been here, before and again.

summer vibes

Babyfoot in the sky

born paranoid way

before Vietnam.

Puffclouds in the sky

huddled in a splay

before grownup.