bare nightmare

wrap me up in brown paper

send me far from here
the doula dreamy dredge

last night, i was at a bar,
your ex with an snake arm
round my waist

fingertips concave my skin
plush and no longer hard, i was weak,
he was whispering spittle sweet nothing

he said he craved me
yet i knew he said the same
to you in the same way

ran on fumble legs to your apartment
waiting all night to
    -hold you
        -tell you
            -bond with you
                -our sullen stories

i was dusting
your picture frames
i was keeping busy
there were pet rats
           everywhere
        till morning

you were in your bed
    the bed i made
    in sheets i washed
with a Dr. SomethingSomething
with the face of a serious child
    -a face that never played a game
            till he was an adult

            in
                security.
all this was always nothing

but my head.
    wake up alone.