I may not think, but I am the only one doing anything.

Think.

Think.

He says,

He commands,

He directs,

Me to think.

"Think because you scar shit."

Okay.

Can't scar shit,

when you don't do shit

Like him.

Go smoke another cigar

and think think think

about what were you thinking

When you married a child.

sleepy scares

Another school shooting today

as today is just like yesterday.

Shocked that we're shocked

the suspect was not an angry White man,

but an angry Black man, young. So young.

I slip into complacent sorrow

smooth and thick, honey unsweet

we made a world where men

burst out and women cry in.

I will wallow in my home alone

unfair

It's unreasonable to expect me

to have seventy year old knowledge

when I am only halfway there

daycation

Retreat into myself

because you already did

all your living and

I am just the side chore.

How we are on a mountain

we are in a park, a cabin in the woods

holed up and watching TV

like there's nothing outside at all.

sizzle

Scorpio Moon teases 

Virgo Venus, shy.

My life is held together

With an apron's tie

pulling through days

Like a cucumber vine

pulling itself across 

the ground, army crawl

heat like a garden jalapeno

spicy with crisp green.

It leaps joy.

Sudden knowing,

Who I am and becoming.

clamped tight

Wake up middle of night

jaw like a clamp, not tense

more than that, mouthhurt.

Want to whisper my secrets

into the wind like,

"I want to build a dollhouse."

and

"I am scared."

but the locked jaw has 

my tongue imprisoned.

words are spells

"Which celebrity do you think will die next?"

It's not small talk, but not big, deep talk either

             In-between.

Like in-between books shelves, can't see over

or sun setting so fast you forgot, that the world

moves fast whether you are awake or not.