love me like i love you (slow and small)

 

The pace of mail. So slow. Slow to create. Slow to transmit. Slow to consume. But never a slow open. I rip open the envelopes. I'm feverish and fiending. I slide letters into mailboxes and journals and dreams. Compact communication. Do you have dirt under your fingernails like I do? If so, I want to be so small I am planted in the dirt under your fingernails. Be there as you pick your teeth and bite you nails and move your hands about as your speak. Listen to you yap yap yap chaotic precious words to others, to yourself, to a empty room. Take my little notes and drop them on a box and even be there as you open them up. To be there as you open them up. Open up another piece of me. I don't need a lot, yet it's still too much.

the people's princess

blond baby bunny

run from me

thru the bush

past the a.c.

               unit

would you believe me

tonight

when the owls and bats

fly overhead

and i'm scared

blond baby bunny

                                            can't get away.

 

classic soda fountain egg cream

mix-tape yeeted me into the sun

so i blaze up 

[as the kids say]

the algorithm cannot duet me together

i am just a grown up imaginary friend

in a digital stockade 

[trend on trend on trend]

i am bloodmeal

sacrificed to the flowers' roots

found objects in the shed

animal family coo-ing 

from the tree

jesus-tree, crucified petals,

bunny-nosed kiss,

pistill and stamen,

winnie-the-pooh

on valentine's day.

meet the baby.

within every head is a skull.

naked and afraid [the show]

loud commercial jingles

pause, i shot up hormones

the nouveau medical

do not take if allergic to life.

what if in every pill

      there was a soda shop,

or shoppe,

and we could sock hop in,

sit at the counter,

and split a classic soda egg cream

at the fountain tonight?

[two straws we save in a scrapbook]

grumpy

basketball game chills

            play-by-play

        I am in

    how you tell a story

and I can feel nostalgic

    for a time I was not born

            like I am in house dress

     flour is on my apron

I'm calling the boys in 

                        for dinner.

sometimes

    I forget these todays will be

        flashback to the action hero's

dead girlfriend for whom he

    avenges, 

tomorrows

    a reoccurring dream

        smile over the shoulder

    slow-motion

  will be how I remember

someday.

owe you, 

        I owe you,

so much more than 

    just my public domain time.

nice Midwestern thighs (I am April's Fool)

shaved my legs today

for no special reason

just to feel the smooth

against the sheets

the things I like

are like that

unnecessary

indulgent

but small 

and only

for me

for you

and only you

so great

decadent

ultra-necessary

are like that

the things I like, too

I shaved my legs

but not my pits,

I don't ever

rub my arm pit

on the sheets

screenshots in hell

IRL.

IRL.

what if we a/s/l'ed

in real life

and you saw 

my screenshot

folder

and you couldn't 

look away?

meet me where you left me

plucked from the Nile

    colorful as your eyes

floating among reeds

    water snakes

        sinking sticks

    and floating wood

a sky swallows me whole

pulled me from the fields

    which shimmy seductive

  mice scurry, gleaning

    a harvest for small lives
snuggled in their

        warm biblical holes

whisked from ark stern

        to rough  waves

    drowning in God's Will,

        brutal to not be a chosen

                duo, 

just a sole leaf surface floating,

    single rock skipping

I am at the bottom of the ocean

    been there for centuries,

                get a scuba suit.

roll away the stone

    wake up from your death,

    Lazarus-

         open you eyes, 

see me, see me still here,

always here

        always waiting

always ready for the wake up

open your eyes to the person

            always by you.

among the waving fronds,

    dried leaves swishing,

I am always here, 

                always waiting,

patient as always, 

        never moving,

so when you are ready

                you'll find me.