make me prolific

almost as careless

    and chaotic 

            as me

that's dangerous

            chemistry

    atomic bombs

    mustard gas

    a violence
that lasts

[unintentionally.]

[isn't that somehow worse?]

oops, my misunderstanding

        oops, i did it again

thought this were 

    long-distance chess

        another lacey thong ballet

balanced on light beams.

        every day

familiar numb fear

    that, for you,

i was never really 

        really involved.

stupid bystander not so innocent

    -another lesson i refuse to learn

so i write it down

write it down and save it.

burn down my library,

    i got stacks on stacks about you.

[ew i'm ovulating and horny]